WhitneyTo Be or Not to Be a Mother - Part Two
November 27th 2006 16:16
Quality of life was no longer an issue. It hardly ceased to exist. Somehow I was still making it to work but I spent half my day on the bathroom floor trying not to toss my cookies. I was so ill I could barely see straight let alone concentrate on anything but as I was finding my boss, Duke was completely supportive and understanding. Never a cross word or threats of firing me. I was trying to do my job. And he saw my efforts, no matter how limited they eventually became. The type A in me just doesn’t know how not to try. But it was hard. The nausea was so overwhelming.
I remember when I was pregnant with Josh. How I thought I’d had the flu. The nausea was bad but it was more than that. I had this overall sick feeling. It’s hard to explain but it felt just like it felt when I’d had the flu. I’d gone to my doctor but once he heard I was pregnant he told me it wasn’t the flu, it was morning sickness. Really, really bad morning sickness, he’d said. I didn’t believe him at first. I thought he was just being another man telling another woman it was all in her head (so to speak) but as it turned out I’d been wrong and he’d been right. And now it was happening all over again.
When I was pregnant with Josh and feeling really awful I’d asked my Ob/Gyn if this terrible morning sickness could happen again with another pregnancy and he’d assured me that while it could happen in all the cases he’d seen it rarely did. I guess that made me special because it was happening to me all over again.
I remember when I was pregnant with Josh. How I thought I’d had the flu. The nausea was bad but it was more than that. I had this overall sick feeling. It’s hard to explain but it felt just like it felt when I’d had the flu. I’d gone to my doctor but once he heard I was pregnant he told me it wasn’t the flu, it was morning sickness. Really, really bad morning sickness, he’d said. I didn’t believe him at first. I thought he was just being another man telling another woman it was all in her head (so to speak) but as it turned out I’d been wrong and he’d been right. And now it was happening all over again.
When I was pregnant with Josh and feeling really awful I’d asked my Ob/Gyn if this terrible morning sickness could happen again with another pregnancy and he’d assured me that while it could happen in all the cases he’d seen it rarely did. I guess that made me special because it was happening to me all over again.
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